i thought about starting a blog...this morning...while i was sitting in church i just decided that i was going to go home and start one today...and here i go...
so here our my thoughts today...
this morning in church i was remembering why i sit clean on the right side of the church and not behind the jr high and high school students. i was about to rip off somes heads. lately i've been really kind of not wanting to go to church, my heart just hasn't been into it. but i've been really trying hard to keep focused on the message. and today with these boys messing around it was just distracting me so much. then i started thinking about when i was in high school and how some sundays i acted that way (maybe not as roudy as them). and i was thinking, "did anyone who sat around me get anything out of the sermon because of my messing around.?" and from what i experienced today i'm sure the answer was no. finally i had it and i yelled at them. i snapped my fingers at them like they were my 2 year olds i teach and told them they were being very disrespectful to everyone around them.
oh the many ways satan tries to distract us. he will use anything to get our attention off of God. i think about all the distraction i have in my life: books, movies, tv, music, annoying people, laziness and a few other things that are keeping me from being the person God wants me to be. from the person God needs me to be.
i need to stop being lazy and distracted and start growing into the person God intended me to become. not the person who refects on her life and sees nothing but failure and disappointment but to become the person who loves God and shows Him through EVERYTHING she does. and someone who finds the joy in EVERYTHING.
even though i'm not too sure where or what i'll be doing next year, i know that God has great things in store for me...He knows exactly where i will be...one thing i do know is that i will be with Him.
"for I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." jeremiah 29:11
